"If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change." Buddha

Wow! I havent done a quote of the Day in awhile... Since my last myspace account. I think Life takes things over the top some times. Sometimes we take it for granted. I dont think we intend too. I look at myself in the mirror every morning, "I think.... What does he love about me?" I'm totally opposite of what i think he wants, really what any guy wants i guess... I kinda had a nervous break down earlier. I do apologize. But i saw something i've been waiting to see, but it was already there. I dont know if that makes any sense at all. But I do want you to know you mean the world to me.... ANYWAYS... back up emily. Im so insecure about myself. Now i thought i got over that stage awhile ago but it seems as I havent. Look at other gals, and i compare them with me. Then i hear it on talk shows, and its guys who hate FAT girls that piss me off. I know im not skinny but im not like really Fat either. But when you hear hatefull things coming out the opposite sex you get second thoughts running around. Today rene was missing with pics putting faces on a skinny womens body, so he thought it be funny to put mine. I'll admit it was but i think seeing that It got me to think is that what he wants? is that what he is trying to tell me? OMG!!! it broke me. but seeing him, and the way he comfort me it made me feel so alive. again he brings the Old emily back out of me. the spontaneous, happy, down to earth gal i am. It really showed me how much i love him. honestly it was something i was looking for and it was there already. I just need to open my eyes and mind more i guess. Time and change. Time has been passing really Fast, and sometimes it scares me. you know? you want to keep up with it but it slides right pass you. Change I think rene and i relationship has grown, and change in many good ways. more and more each day i see how much i love him. It kinda makes me sad to hear how other relationships around me are falling apart, but im glad me and rene can work it out. i never knew how long i was going to last with him. normally i would have left him before he left me. but he's different... i love that about him. AND HE'S ALL MINE!!!! hear that Rick and Ray!!!?!!!?!! MINE not yours...lol, change is good, you are my flower that i watch. LOVE YOU!!! so there you go theres my blog. till next time peace

emi